Please help, huge crush on a girl, and a messed up life?

Please help me, huge crush on a girl and a messed up life?


Sorry this is very long but please read this i need your help, you might actually find this interesting this is kind of the story of my life and all my hardships. Thank you for your time and help!





Okay so here's the whole story. I started going to this school since 5th grade, and immediately i got a crush on a girl in the class. While other guys in the class thought she looked okay-ish i thought she looked just gorgeous, she was very nice, well mannered and one of the top students of the class, she would often go out with people to the movies,clubbing etc. While i am a ';geek'; i am shy, i like computers,tech,tcg's,anime and stuff like that, but she is basically into anything she likes that kind of stuff also. I was getting pretty good grades in school just like her, later in less than a year, others started making fun of me because i am kind of timid and very shy, i know for fact they would even lie about me to some people on purpose, i don't know what their problem was it seemed like they just wanted to make me feel miserable, i suppose because i lived in a different place and only went to their school since 5th grade and they didn't know me so i guess i was kind of an outcast. Pretty much no one liked the same stuff i did and all that. Eventually after about a year i believe she noticed that i might have a thing for her so she just went up to me and said hi and gave her hand to shake (i later found out it's kind of a trick by a girl - if you don't want to let go of her hand for a little bit it's a pretty good sign you like her) then 2 of my classmates (the only ones that i had something in common with and i could talk to them and all) just sat in the desk in front of her and she was sitting all by herself and they said ';hey sit here (showing the seat next to her) were gonna talk'; and stuff like that... i didn't go because i was just so shy and didn't want them to find out about the crush i had on her. Then another day during gym when i was sitting on a bench she and her best friend (also a girl) sat next to me and started asking me questions like ';have you kissed a girl before?'; and i answered no and her best friend said ';oh, your not into that kind of stuff yet, huh?'; and that's pretty much where the ';conversation'; ended... i just kept answering ';no'; and ';yes'; to their questions because of my shyness... So one day in literature class our teacher said every student should make a ';seating plan'; of how everyone should sit in the classroom from that day on and someones list where i was sitting by the same desk as she is got picked, so i was sitting with her. So during the next lesson i was just blushing and i felt weird. I just couldn't believe i was sitting right next to her, so the guys in the class figured i had a crush on her(same guys who would make fun of me) and laughingly said ';hey are you dissapointed about who your sitting with?';and i was too shy to talk and she just said ';nah' he's not dissapointed'; and smiled at me and put her arm around my neck, i quickly pulled it down and i was blushing like hell ^_^. Eventually when we went on to 9th grade everyone started thinking about jobs and what are their ideas for what they wanted to do with their lives and all, and by this time i was like a mess, people would criticize me for the way i am ( a geek i guess), make fun of me a lot, nickname me, and i even started skipping school on purpose so i started getting bad grades and i felt like i was in a huge mess, then one day she made fun of me a little bit in class and i was kind of angry and sad and i guess she saw that, and after class she said ';i was just kidding, i'm sorry if i hurt you';. Yet in another few months a girl that lives a couple of blocks away from me just walked up to me and started making fun of me in front of my friends for no reason... the same way the girl i liked did in class... i tried to ignore her but she kept going and then just started throwing insults in my face and i told her to shut up and she kept going even more, so i couldn't control myself and i kicked her... then her mother came over to my house and i was in big trouble :/. Apparently as i found out later she was friends with the girl i had a crush on... she never made fun of me again after that day, but the girl that i liked apparently started asking question through the girl that lived a couple of blocks away (because in my neighborhood around people that i know very well and am friends with i feel a lot more confident) so the girl asked me ';do you like that girl in your class?'; and i said ';i don't know... she's okay'; (once again, shyness and i just didn't want her to know... i have no idea why i guess because i was afraid everyone found out and as i said i was so shy). In a few more weeks there was an opening for school president and the girl i liked ran for president, so the girl that lived in my neighborhood asked who i was voting for and i said '; i don't knPlease help, huge crush on a girl, and a messed up life?
can you shorten this a bit maybe you can be helped. :)Please help, huge crush on a girl, and a messed up life?
Damn
dont be so shy and next time you see the girl talk to her,


and see where it goes after that
i dunno if this will help


but by the info that u have given me it sounds like she liked you lots and all she did was try to get ur attention but she went the wrong way to get it i dunno but she could be feeling the same way u are.feeling dissapointed that u have gone i suggest leavng a coment on her online profile
ok, i just read the whole thing and seriously, you neeeed not to read into things so much. this girl sounds like a ***** to be honest, she really doesnt seem that nice to you so i dont understand why u like her? if its simply because of her looks i think its just a teenage infatuation, rather than love. you will hopefully get over her in time. you also shouldnt have had to deal with the bullying alone, please go see a therapist or someone who can help u deal with it all, because uv been through soo much! Also, focus on your studies and getting along better with your teachers.in all honestly thats all thats important at school - good grades. screw the other kids, find some good friends and just continue to be friendly to kids that giv u a hard time - its really hard to be mean to someone whos nice to you. just giv this crush time, try and forget her, dont look at her online photos or profile - that might help and maybe giv some of these other girls a chance. u only live once. hope that helped. all the best xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
man, i am sorry about that...





what i think (and this may just be me) is that you might have freaked her out a little bit, i mean, to be in love with somebody for so long when you are so young really might of intimidated her, or embarrassed her. I don't know if she liked you or not but she was obviously uncomfortable with what was going on or else she wouldn't of made fun of you. You really should take a step back, for some reason i doubt if she really deserves all the emotion youre throwing at her.





but anyway, you sound really self deprecating through out your story, so i think you need to spend some time on figuring out who you are and respecting yourself. Yeah, i know that sounds lame, but you sound like you are fighting to stand up and you have nothing to stand on. Focus on school, you sound like a smart guy, just work on your grades, stop lashing out in anger, stop pitying yourself (sorry, but all that self pity just breeds into more self pity- and you are swimming in it), and stop obsessing over that girl.
That's really cute...you should tell her how you've felt the whole time...just let it spill out...there's really nothing else you can do and after you realize it, you shouldn't feel at all shy about talking to her. She probably enjoyed talking to you the few times she did and it sounds like she cares about you. Just try talking to her again...she won't think you're weird for doing so.





By the way, you're probably just about as old as I am. It really is about time you man up and tell her because you may never get another chance once she goes to art school.
Boyy,you need to learn how to stanp up for yourself.


You dont have to do it by violence.


But Tell them to Shut the F*** up and get a life.


And stop wasting there time making fun of you.





And the girl you like:


Well girls like when guys are confident.They think its sexy (:


And saying shes ';okay'; can get around easily.And eventually she'll hear it.Just admit that you've liked her.Your just wasting her time.Stop being so shy.Say something like,whats up?wanna go out?Something like that.I guarentee you,you'll be happy (:.If you dont do anything about it she will lose total interest in you and move on.Theres alot building up inside you and you need to get it all out.Just tell her all this.That you've liked her since 5th grade and has always been to shy to say anything.You only have 1 life.Call her,IM her,go see her.I know you have it in you.I know you wont regret it.And if you do start talking to her.Dont bore her.Be active,funny,outgoing (: You just need to be m,ore comfortable around her.Maybe you could even try being friends with her first?











No offence but anime is geeky.Maybe you could get into sports?Like soccer (: work out a little bit.