Please i need help, huge crush on a girl and my life seems like a huge mess?

Please help me, huge crush on a girl and a messed up life?


Sorry this is very long but please read this i need your help, you might actually find this interesting this is kind of the story of my life and all my hardships. Thank you for your time and help!





Okay so here's the whole story. I started going to this school since 5th grade, and immediately i got a crush on a girl in the class. While other guys in the class thought she looked okay-ish i thought she looked just gorgeous, she was very nice, well mannered and one of the top students of the class, she would often go out with people to the movies,clubbing etc. While i am a ';geek'; i am shy, i like computers,tech,tcg's,anime and stuff like that, but she is basically into anything she likes that kind of stuff also. I was getting pretty good grades in school just like her, later in less than a year, others started making fun of me because i am kind of timid and very shy, i know for fact they would even lie about me to some people on purpose, i don't know what their problem was it seemed like they just wanted to make me feel miserable, i suppose because i lived in a different place and only went to their school since 5th grade and they didn't know me so i guess i was kind of an outcast. Pretty much no one liked the same stuff i did and all that. Eventually after about a year i believe she noticed that i might have a thing for her so she just went up to me and said hi and gave her hand to shake (i later found out it's kind of a trick by a girl - if you don't want to let go of her hand for a little bit it's a pretty good sign you like her) then 2 of my classmates (the only ones that i had something in common with and i could talk to them and all) just sat in the desk in front of her and she was sitting all by herself and they said ';hey sit here (showing the seat next to her) were gonna talk'; and stuff like that... i didn't go because i was just so shy and didn't want them to find out about the crush i had on her. Then another day during gym when i was sitting on a bench she and her best friend (also a girl) sat next to me and started asking me questions like ';have you kissed a girl before?'; and i answered no and her best friend said ';oh, your not into that kind of stuff yet, huh?'; and that's pretty much where the ';conversation'; ended... i just kept answering ';no'; and ';yes'; to their questions because of my shyness... So one day in literature class our teacher said every student should make a ';seating plan'; of how everyone should sit in the classroom from that day on and someones list where i was sitting by the same desk as she is got picked, so i was sitting with her. So during the next lesson i was just blushing and i felt weird. I just couldn't believe i was sitting right next to her, so the guys in the class figured i had a crush on her(same guys who would make fun of me) and laughingly said ';hey are you dissapointed about who your sitting with?';and i was too shy to talk and she just said ';nah' he's not dissapointed'; and smiled at me and put her arm around my neck, i quickly pulled it down and i was blushing like hell ^_^. Eventually when we went on to 9th grade everyone started thinking about jobs and what are their ideas for what they wanted to do with their lives and all, and by this time i was like a mess, people would criticize me for the way i am ( a geek i guess), make fun of me a lot, nickname me, and i even started skipping school on purpose so i started getting bad grades and i felt like i was in a huge mess, then one day she made fun of me a little bit in class and i was kind of angry and sad and i guess she saw that, and after class she said ';i was just kidding, i'm sorry if i hurt you';. Yet in another few months a girl that lives a couple of blocks away from me just walked up to me and started making fun of me in front of my friends for no reason... the same way the girl i liked did in class... i tried to ignore her but she kept going and then just started throwing insults in my face and i told her to shut up and she kept going even more, so i couldn't control myself and i kicked her... then her mother came over to my house and i was in big trouble :/. Apparently as i found out later she was friends with the girl i had a crush on... she never made fun of me again after that day, but the girl that i liked apparently started asking question through the girl that lived a couple of blocks away (because in my neighborhood around people that i know very well and am friends with i feel a lot more confident) so the girl asked me ';do you like that girl in your class?'; and i said ';i don't know... she's okay'; (once again, shyness and i just didn't want her to know... i have no idea why i guess because i was afraid everyone found out and as i said i was so shy). In a few more weeks there was an opening for school president and the girl i liked ran for president, so the girl that lived in my neighborhood asked who i was voting for and i said '; i don't knPlease i need help, huge crush on a girl and my life seems like a huge mess?
people feel better about themselves by making fun of other people. Trust me i've been down your road before. Now that you have a new school just become a new self. I'm not saying change who you are, but become who you want to be and set goals, don't stop until you meet those goals. Life is too short to mope around, just go for it thats all i can say and don't care what anyone else says, if people start making fun of you ask why their putting their problems on other people that will usually get a couple laughs and make people forget about what he/she said about you. Just don't give in and make sure you meet those goals.


I was in your position and now i have a gf of 6 month and am one of the most popular kids in the school, just don't give in (oh and i'm a sophomore)