Sunday, November 14, 2010

How do you get over the guy of your dreams when you don't even know what went wrong?

the last 2 weeks of summer me and my friend were staying at a beach condo complex. one night when we were hanging out this guy was yelling off the balcony with a group of people at us to get out of the Jacuzzi and come to room 209 to play beerpong with them. we thought the whole thing was so funny so we went up just to say hi after security filed them for a noise complaint of yelling off the balcony at 11. we left our number and told them wed chill the next day. we ended up sneaking out every night to party with them and started at 11am-3am. going to the beach, surfing jello shots, beerpong, stepbrothers, going to the movies and just messing around. i instantly started crushing on this guy the second i saw him yelling off the balcony. he was everything on my checklist, funny, tall, built, nice, laid back, attractive, knows how to have fun, but can still keep it real, and most importantly a little rebel. he texted me the second i left every night until we came back in the morning. one night when we were starting to get a little buzzed i challenged him to a one on one bp game. and if i won i got to paint his nails pink, he said if he won he wanted a kiss. i lost by one cup accidentally on purpose. ive kissed plently of boys before but this kiss was unreal. it felt like the whole room was spinning and not just cuz i was drunk lol. i cant even describe how amazing it was other than abslutly amazing. it wasnt that long but it seemed like hours. at first i tried to play it like it was just for the bet cuz i didnt want people getting the wrong impression. but it only took a minute before we were making out again...and then we ended up on the futon and at that moment all i could think was that i never wanted to leave, and thats when my dad walked in and threatened to arrest everyone for underaged drinking thank god he didnt c me getting on a 19yearold in the other room. we texted all the time when we weren't together and he was always the one to text first, or call, or start a conversation at-first. saying goodbye was the hardest thing ever. im not the kind of girl to get attached to guys i just met, or really any guys for that matter. but something about him made me not want to ever let go. i live 8 hours away from him and i knew that as soon as summer ended our little ';fling'; or whatever you want to call it would end also. but he wouldnt let it. my friend and i drove home the next day and he told me he couldnt get over it and that he wanted to talk to me everyday. at first i thought that was a little much, but it wasnt, at all. we would talk for 3hours at a time and not run out of things to say i would text him while i was in class and hed text me from work. my texting bill was over 6000 texts a month and i still wanted to talk more. he'd send the cutest texts saying he missed me and your beautifull, and im falling for you hardcore and i cant believe its all over that kiss. for 2and a half months straight, starting the second i met him till 2 weeks ago he sent me continual texts all day long. we both have lives, but we would stop everything we were doing to text each-other. the last normal text he sent was when i told him i was falling asleep at 2 in the morning and that i ws gonna crash. he texted me ';i miss you so much babe, i wish i could fall asleep with you, sweet dreams i %26lt;3 u xxx.'; and then i texted him the next day and he didnt respond but i just figured he was busy so i didnt pay attention to it. and then i texted him the day after that, and the day after that and he didnt respond, i didnt want to be clingy so i just waited for him to text me....for 3 days and still no responce. i freaked out and thought something was wrongbut he finally responded and said he just doesnt pay as much attention to his phone anymore and that he had been working alot and it didnt have anything to do with me. but when he saw he had like 6 missed calls from me over 10 days he didnt think to call me bak once. if he was over it i would be sad, but i would get over it, i asked him if i was waisting his time cuz he didnt seem to care anymore cuz i felt like i was talking to a brick wall, and he said that im not waisting my time, and its not that he doesnt want to talk to me ';again'; hes just been really tired and hasnt been paying attention to his phone. hes been avoiding me for 2weeks now so i stopped trying to takl to him all together. i feel so pathetic cuz im miserable over a guy who honestly, i barely hung out with who livs on the other side of california. and i dont even know what happened all of a sudden that made him stop missing me over night. the only thing that made sense to me was if there was another girl but there isnt. or if i did something but i didnt. and ive talked to people who know him and none of them know why. i know i just have to forget about it and i think after writing out this shitty story ill be fine. i ******* hate boys.How do you get over the guy of your dreams when you don't even know what went wrong?
Too much information! Too complicated. Too much ego. Too much desire. You think too much of yourself!

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